I’m Tired

Taking my dignity was hard enough.

You knew my life had been rough.

I thought you would never judge.

I loved you from the beginning.

You tortured my soul until I had nothing.

I was captive in your arms.

You said I wasn’t in no harm.

I told you the truth and you was alarmed.

I was your main target.

My heart broke and you saw it.

Disgusted by the disguise behind your eyes.

I moved away from your life.

If that whore was important then make her your wife.

You received no support from me.

I was your tease.

You apologized; apologized for what?

I should’ve trusted my gut.

This was not love.

Because I got shoved.

I’m tired mentally.

I’m tired emotionally.

I wanna erase the memories.

Tears on the floor.

I don’t want it no more.

I’m tired of you. I wanna forget us two.

All I can say is 3 years of friendship down the drain; now you choose.

Now, you have nothing to prove.

Romeo and Juliet

You blame me for the the pain you caused. 

You believed you did nothing wrong.

I spent hours listening to sad love songs.

I forgot my sense of direction.

I assumed I would receive affection. you took my love for granted.

I knew from looking at the two of you, I was never wanted.

I can’t stand the lies.

take the image out of my eyes.

I want you to be forgotten. 

the truth slipped out of your mouth and I was frozen. 

The lies I never wanted to believe.

You came into my life and deceived. thought it was love I received. 

You put me on a pedestal and called me Juliette. 

There was vulnerability in my mindset.

I thought you were my Romeo and we could run off in the sunset. 

But you fell for the poison form a girl who’s cruel.

Now look who looks like a fool.

You sunk into my heart like quicksand.

Fed me lies just to hold your hand.

I will not do it anymore.

I’m so sick of you, you’re such a bore.

You never apologized for the heart that you tore.

Give me back my heart that you took. control your witch that gave me an evil look.

I cut the line now.

I will end the show with one final bow.

Time’s Up

Time’s Up

Your times up

You played the game and you got booted out; strike out.

When I saw what happened I wanted to shout.

But you thought I could be tamed.

In your gamed that you played.

I told you my feelings, but you didn’t care.

In your game where you didn’t play fair.

I saw you with another.

Thought she was your lover.

You treated her better.

And ignored me like I was trash beneath your feet.

Can’t feel my insides boiling with rage; can’t you feel the heat?

I don’t deserve this hurt.

I don’t deserve those mean words.

I call the time out; I tell you that the time is up; I make the call.

I decide if you fall or don’t fall.

You can tell another girl, “what’s up”.

I quit the game you play today.

It ends today cause I cannot take the heartache that follows.

I cannot take the pain and the sorrows.

Seeing you with another.

I told myself it doesn’t bother.

For the sake of my heart clashing with pain.

I say times up to your games.

Ink Stains

Ink stains on my heart because of the pain.

The thought of you dancing with her is too much I cannot imagine.

You said you were moving on; give me a valid reason.

The single rose you gave me had crippled days ago.

The show was over and there was a glow.

A light that only was shown when you had vanished.

To replenish my soul from the emotional damage.

The aftermath left me insane.

When you left and came back too many times again.

Ink stains was permanent  on this heart of mine.

You can’t just leave me hangin’ at any given time.

I hurt too.

I hurt because of you.

The ink raced down to the ground as you stand there seeing my cry.

The tears I shed felt like I could’ve died.

“At any given time he will walk through that door”.

That thought cannot be ignored.

I sit still in the edge of the bed where we made passionate love.

Where the love for me was already enough.

But now I got shoved.

And there is no way of going back.

Even when I had my bags packed.

Images of you I saw through thr vanity mirror came to life.

And you stood in front of me with a smile so nice.

And told me you’d feel sorrow if I walked out of your life.

I didn’t believe a word you just said.

So I looked passed you, grabbed my bag, and left.

Labeled Abusers

He took her breath away with one little song.
He compelled her to love his beautiful written song.
Taking her hand in a moonlight dance.
Making her feel like she was staring out of Mt. Everest in one single glance.
Her feelings for him became love at first sight.
As he took her home to end the night.

Years go by and the honeymoon phase became deadly.
All of a sudden their relationship became unsteady.
Her hands were covered over her ears as he was yelling.
Couldn`t hear a word he was saying.
Crying these sad sobs and wondered what she did wrong.
To make the love of her life scream this vicious song.
He feels he is in control.
As he slaps her on the cheeks; her heart took it`s toll.

The first phase of the beating was over.
To know he had more control over her.
The anger shot up to a stifling degree.
She bends down to her knees to plead.
He sees her helpless and it makes him feel like a king.
As he kicked her in the stomach, he had felt he had everything.
Sickening mind he possessed as he sees heaving through his chest.
He sees his girl laying down helpless.
He holds her in his arms of rage in the darkness.
Please help her get out of his arms of evilness.

Months go by and she can`t help but think.
Can she get out of here before she will be under God`s wings.
She looks through the mirror which sits still in the bathroom.
And she could still see bruises on her face of beauty.
Her face never glowed once and she knew this was a sad reality.
She packs her bags and leaves a man who is labeled an abuser.
She runs directly to the cops; so what if he labels her an accuser.
He will be forever labeled an abuser as the cops lock him away as a prisoner.
Justice will be served on platter labeled abuser.

Empty

You changed me for the good then you damaged me for the worst.

You ask me what you did and I pointed to where it hurts.

I pointed to the heart that was full and now it lays there empty.

It was empty since the day you left me.

You got my heart on E, so you tricked me good.

If there was a valid reason to why, I would’ve understood.

But you taped your mouth shut and walked out like a punk.

If they ask me “why”, I would have no response.

Cause I had no clue.

I had no news.

He just left me out of the blue and left me. completely confused.

My heart remains empty.

Now, I sit on this empty bed trying to figure out what caused you to leave.

Don’t Leave Me

It was the night so dim.

When she had to plead for him.

He had his bags packed ready to go.

“Please don’t do this; i will feel so low”.

Her tears dripping down frantically.

The heart of hers was her inner beauty.

She handed it to a man who promised to protect its dignity; but he crushed it with his fleeing.

She gave him her all; he was her first in the season of fall.

Thinking she will save herself for marriage; she had lied.

Now she is pleading on bended knees on the living room floor; herpride died.

The night was still and he was inching closer to the door.

She looked at him with desperation.

His face was so seldom.

Never an emotion on his body.

Just a champion who left a heart bleeding.
“Don’t leave me” she says as she laid both arms on her side helplessly.
Godm the heavenly father from up above.
Please let her open her eyes and never get shoved.
She had catered away everything.
Please don’t let it end with her having nothing.
She says “don’t leave me” one last time.
Now she was left with a shameful “you’ll be fine”.
Never has she ever felt so cold.
As he finally walked out of the door.