I See You Now

The earth shakes and that starts an earthquake. 

I was blinded by the horizon in the distance. 

Snow fell in the desert and it was an odd climate change. 

I could feel your breath on my shoulder as you held me closer. 

Time to wake up now cause the dream is over. 

I see you now, making the vow.

I could see it now, when reality hits. 

I see her zipping the lace dress that fits. 

Her pearls white as day. 

You rehearse a song, romantic in every way. 

Every room was running frantic to get ready for a wedding, in her eyes, so tragic. 

Instead of me, I stood in front of the room staring at the groom. 

I just wish this pain would end soon. 

Best friends for years. 

Can’t stand these tears.

I wish it was me who has lace down to my feet. 

But I see you now, staring in the mirror happily. 

So handsome as can be. 

I wish I can leave. 

As I continue to stare at this monstrosity in this reality. 

I see you now, reading her your vow. 

Reading it out loud. I wish I can be proud.

Though he is my best friend.

This is not how this story ends. 

I see you nowm handsome with the suit and black tie. 

You stare into my eyes. 

I throw a fake smile. 

One sided love is hard to deal. 

Tears drenched the dress colored teal. 

How I wish I can taste his lips still. 

No knowledge of my feelings towards him. 

I thought my chances were slim. 

I see him now, dancing the stars away with someone else. 

I reach for the champagne bottle thinking it will help. 

I fade into the distance gripping the stone wall. 

I see him now, standing with her so tall. 

Wished his voice had the urge to purge out my name.

More tears came and it cannot be tamed. 

I wish I can fall. 

Down to the ground to a bottomless pit. 

I see him now, singing his song. 

To a woman he held so strong. 

OMG! I’m crying hysterically. This is so wrong.

Save Her

The destruction got to her 

Deteriorating her soul and there was no cure. 

Her enemies demised her. 

Beautiful soul but life took its toll. 

Her marriage went south. 

Her husband had doubts. 

Her children she held so tight. 

But she had let go of the string and they flew out of her sight. 

They took the next flight. 

The drugs and alcohol she had to fight. 

The vodka took her soul. 

Where she had nowhere to go. 

Images of a perfect life. 

Images of her being a perfect wife. 

Went down in shambles. 

Her life was a gamble.

She struck out. 

She wanted to shout. 

Save her from this atrocity. 

Save her from this monstrosity. 

Heavenly father from above. 

Don’t let her get shoved. 

Giver her a chance to feel loved. 

Feel the sand beneath her toes. 

Let her soar and reach for gold. 

Save her from herself. 

Let her see her children; that’s all she got left.

Peeling Off The Cover

Begging for mercy.

People think of him as a criminal.

He was never worthy.

Give him a paintbrush.

He will paint the night skies in silence.

Every stroke of the brush with one simple touch.

Makes the colors of the rainbow vibrant.

Underestimated he was.

People who pass him will judge.

Although, he is lonely.

He could drown in his paintings.

His face was a bit stern.

But he was just a person who was willing to learn.

Walked around in the streets of San Francisco.

Looking like a killer.

He was really finding where inspiration goes.

Submit his work to an art gallery.

Hoping his dreams can be a reality.

Walked into a room full of prestige.

The stone cold eyes made his body freeze.

Looked at each individual with a bold face.

Wondering what hell that he never gave. 

As he walked out of the rich room slowly.

The noble men and women turned to the painting on the wall instantly.

He thought the painting was a mockery to society.

The eyes were drawn to the light strokes.

Stared at the eyes of the homeless man.

Saw the culture of San Francisco and was shocked.

The mayor of San Fran was jaw dropped.

To find his city painted so brilliantly.

Zoomed into the bottom corner of the painting and read the man’s name written so gently. 

He will announce the talented man’s name as soon as possible.

hundreds took pictures with their mobile.

Regret suddenly depicted in their snotty faces.

To talk to him with disgrace. 

Thinking what he was doing was a distaste.

The mayor thought he should get paid. 

He turned around and told his men to get the talent. 

They saw him outside at a parking lot so vacant. 

Told him to go to the mayor. 

He was shocked and thought this was major. 

The mayor asked him how much his painting was for. 

Tears dropped down to the ground; this was a happy galore. 

He asked the mayor how much he offered. 

The mayor said five hundred thousand dollars. 

From then on, his life changed a ton. 

He painted the whole world to post in the gallery. 

The crowd saw emotions in his painting happily. 

His dream spread its wings in the light. 

As he continued to show off his paintings at night. 

I’m Tired

Taking my dignity was hard enough.

You knew my life had been rough.

I thought you would never judge.

I loved you from the beginning.

You tortured my soul until I had nothing.

I was captive in your arms.

You said I wasn’t in no harm.

I told you the truth and you was alarmed.

I was your main target.

My heart broke and you saw it.

Disgusted by the disguise behind your eyes.

I moved away from your life.

If that whore was important then make her your wife.

You received no support from me.

I was your tease.

You apologized; apologized for what?

I should’ve trusted my gut.

This was not love.

Because I got shoved.

I’m tired mentally.

I’m tired emotionally.

I wanna erase the memories.

Tears on the floor.

I don’t want it no more.

I’m tired of you. I wanna forget us two.

All I can say is 3 years of friendship down the drain; now you choose.

Now, you have nothing to prove.

Game Over

The words she had spoken was like a deep cut.

He broke her in pieces, but she came up.

The flower had crippled weeks ago.

The sun was coming down and his heart was shown.

It was filled with blackness that dripped on the floor.

An evil manipulation was planned.

There was a note in an empty can.

It reads “game over”.

He went to his actual lover.

They spent the night with each other.

She was another loser.

She ran for cover.

But it was game over.

Rain fell out of the tear ducts and turned into bullets on the ground.

In the room there was no sound.

Just a man with an invisible crown.

He had won the invisible game.

It was over for her and she felt shame.

For the longest time she was to blame for the shame.

She had to find another to recover.

As she watched him walk down the aisle with his new lover.

She felt pain like no other.

Game over.

Can’t Stop

Can’t Stop

Blood trickled through the veins of this heart.

Though I can never part.

With your eyes staring back at me.

Is all I can see.

Friends say otherwise.

They told me to pick other guys.

I cried over him with tears clear across the cold floor.

I can’t stop.

I won’t stop.

Loving his presence.

Loving his eyes stripping my soul.

I was special in his eyes. Once upon a time.

Now there are lakes and rivers dividing our bodies farther away from each other.

You told me to choose another.

But I can’t stop thinking of you while holding hands with someone closer.

Beautiful Soul

The voices in her head makes her go insane.

She cannot stand the pain.

The pain is like a deadly virus injected inside of her vein.

In one split second, she will go insane.

Making her way through men who wants a piece of her thigh.

Makes her want to cry.

Beautiful soul she has become.

Never will they see the fight in her so they expect nothing to come.

I have lived my life like this girl’s chaos.

Where my life has been put on a pause.

Where my pride was long gone.

This girl and I are the same.

When we look at each other in the mirror, we feel shame.

We do admit that we hate seeing each other.

To love ourselves, why do we bother.

We get pushed into the dirt until we have a mouthful.

With no knowledge of what we are doing with our beautiful soul.

We continue to let the ones who hate us treat us like shit.

And wonder if we faded away from this cold society that we will ever be missed.

We thought about ending our lives in this cold society.

Thinking that happiness is an illusion to our fantasy.

Our beautiful souls had turned gray at one time.

Telling people, we are fine when we were not fine.

I, myself, see this reflection and see a twin.

With a mindset to lose but never to win.

 

Romeo and Juliet

You blame me for the the pain you caused. 

You believed you did nothing wrong.

I spent hours listening to sad love songs.

I forgot my sense of direction.

I assumed I would receive affection. you took my love for granted.

I knew from looking at the two of you, I was never wanted.

I can’t stand the lies.

take the image out of my eyes.

I want you to be forgotten. 

the truth slipped out of your mouth and I was frozen. 

The lies I never wanted to believe.

You came into my life and deceived. thought it was love I received. 

You put me on a pedestal and called me Juliette. 

There was vulnerability in my mindset.

I thought you were my Romeo and we could run off in the sunset. 

But you fell for the poison form a girl who’s cruel.

Now look who looks like a fool.

You sunk into my heart like quicksand.

Fed me lies just to hold your hand.

I will not do it anymore.

I’m so sick of you, you’re such a bore.

You never apologized for the heart that you tore.

Give me back my heart that you took. control your witch that gave me an evil look.

I cut the line now.

I will end the show with one final bow.

A Woman’s Pride

Make up your mind and follow.

Patch up the wound and let the memory of him flow.

Out of your head and into the wind.

Let the memory flow swiftly through the forest which echoes.

Find happiness through the branches which grows.

Strong woman you are; never let a man say that you aren’t.

The whole world will know your beauty one day.

Don’t let his sinful mouth bring you down.

You will be defeated and he will wear his crown.

Beat the highest mountain you can find and fly.

Away from the misery which was kept behind these thick walls.

Leaves you shameless and defeated.

It wasn’t you that needed; it’s him that needed.

Last time you pleaded.

You apologize for the times he had treated.

You badly and still you were addicted to staying.

What I am saying is…

Follow your brain as well as your heart.

Or your pride will fall apart.

Labeled Abusers

He took her breath away with one little song.
He compelled her to love his beautiful written song.
Taking her hand in a moonlight dance.
Making her feel like she was staring out of Mt. Everest in one single glance.
Her feelings for him became love at first sight.
As he took her home to end the night.

Years go by and the honeymoon phase became deadly.
All of a sudden their relationship became unsteady.
Her hands were covered over her ears as he was yelling.
Couldn`t hear a word he was saying.
Crying these sad sobs and wondered what she did wrong.
To make the love of her life scream this vicious song.
He feels he is in control.
As he slaps her on the cheeks; her heart took it`s toll.

The first phase of the beating was over.
To know he had more control over her.
The anger shot up to a stifling degree.
She bends down to her knees to plead.
He sees her helpless and it makes him feel like a king.
As he kicked her in the stomach, he had felt he had everything.
Sickening mind he possessed as he sees heaving through his chest.
He sees his girl laying down helpless.
He holds her in his arms of rage in the darkness.
Please help her get out of his arms of evilness.

Months go by and she can`t help but think.
Can she get out of here before she will be under God`s wings.
She looks through the mirror which sits still in the bathroom.
And she could still see bruises on her face of beauty.
Her face never glowed once and she knew this was a sad reality.
She packs her bags and leaves a man who is labeled an abuser.
She runs directly to the cops; so what if he labels her an accuser.
He will be forever labeled an abuser as the cops lock him away as a prisoner.
Justice will be served on platter labeled abuser.